Saturday, 27 June 2015

Crash, Crash, Burn.

I would like to keep this as short as possible so that the pictures can take over. Anyway, these are pictures I took of my best friend, Neha. I'm calling this series of photographs, 'Crash, Crash, Burn'. It's supported  by this quote I saw somewhere on Instagram,and I regret not checking it's origins, 'Play insecurities like a piano'. That's a beautiful quote and it really struck me. I just wanted to create images about insecurities, how we keep trying to fix them and try to adhere to society's notion and images of beauty. I wanted to document an after effect on a subject of the 'crash', after trying and failing to become beautiful according to today's standards, and how after those continuous 'crashes' there came a 'burn' in which the subject decides to create her own beauty standards that are bizarre and bold i.e, glitter under her eyes and onto her cheeks. It is the transformation into an alter ego, into this alternate universe where you can wear makeup however without being told how to 'beautify' yourself. It is a notion of freedom of expression, onto your body, the canvas.

Some of the pictures are from my phone, and some from my camera, hence the fluctuation in picture quality.

1) Hurricane-Thirty Seconds to Mars
2) Hospital for Souls-Bring Me The Horizon
3) Rise-Skylar Grey ft. David Guetta

Friday, 19 June 2015


Everyone has their own work processes. Some work in a very systematical, organized way, while some surround themselves with a huge mess. Some cannot function without a strong cup of black coffee before starting their day tasks, and get right to business, while some enjoy spending time making nice, big breakfasts for themselves, eating it al fresco and taking their mornings slow, enjoying every element of it. Everyone functions in their own ways, everyone’s minds work their own ways, and everyone has a different process of creation. I decided to document my own work process over the stretch of one long day.

I believe that I work messy, and when I’m feeling really inspired and motivated to do and create, my room becomes a chaotic, haphazard jungle of clothes, makeup and miscellaneous items, sprawled over my desk, bed and floor. I tend to panic and stress at random times, then get wound up by excitement of what I’m doing, especially if it is taking themed pictures-I can act quite bipolar at times. To set the mood I always have to either have one song up on repeat, or I have to make a special playlist to go with the mood I’m ‘feeling’. These days I am reverting back to my old, eight grade rock playlists-I feel nostalgic, and I feel comforted by the familiarity of the bass, the guitar riffs and the bold vocals. On this particular day I was listening to ‘Hospital for souls’ by Bring Me The Horizon, on repeat. The music kind of blended and faded into the background by the time the song repeated itself for the fourth. I felt like angsty Mana, slightly rebellious Mana, bold and creative Mana.

All these pictures are a part of ‘#babethrone’-they show a young woman who is creating something working at her desk, the different positions she acquires, the messes that she makes, the change in facial expressions as she thinks, reads and writes. I decided to document these pictures what I would like to call my ‘standard babe working uniform’, black sweats, a black tank, black glasses, black everything but dark red or burgundy lips. I feel very ‘Dauntless’ in my babe uniform, and it makes me feel very powerful especially the lipstick, but all of us here now what benefits are reaped of a good lipstick. Maybe sometimes my babe uniform will change ever so slightly. Maybe I might wear a dark, vampy, purple lippy, or go for a nice bright pink. Maybe one day while feeling extra babe-ly and professional, I might wear an elongating pair of black cigarette pants, and some strappy heels(once I learn to walk properly in them and don’t like a tower that is tottering about, ready to just collapse). Oh, the power of a babe uniform.

The pictures are of bad quality and grainy on purpose. They are also all in black and white on purpose. This is because I wanted to give them this gritty, brooding vibe, that would be achieved by the feel of backstage at a rock show. Dark details, fuzzy captures, terrible messes, just minus the musicians drinking and doing drugs. 

I took all these pictures at various times of the day-at times I would even stop for a good old selfie during a work break. I was good and I was productive-I was messy and I was innovative. And the mess hardly bothers me when I know it was created by a beautiful stream of thoughts and idea trials, ideas and perspective- a beautiful mess that follows a beautiful work process.

#babethrone is a series started by Maham Insha, in which she collects documentations by innovative women who create and inspire; of their work spaces- the places where their magical work processes swing into action and from where they move towards conquering the world. If you would like to contribute your magical workspaces to help grow this series, shoot an email at

Tuesday, 16 June 2015

And you can call me Queen Bee?

I have been so excited for this post because I seriously believe that I have poured my heart and soul into it and that THIS is exactly the kind of content I want to create for my blog, and I’m excited to see the evolution in the quality and type of blog posts. This is my ‘Lorde’ style post, because, well, the Queen Bee is a serious style muse.

I remember the first time I decided to REALLY listen to her music, having heard a lot about this new singer. I binge watched some of her music videos and sure, they were great, but what REALLY caught my fancy were these YouTube videos of her performing at various shows. You know how there has to be real character incorporated into songs, and an image of the artist has to be developed-a vision, an identity? Lorde is so full of character, so different, and gives mesmerizing performances. I feel like if I were ever to see her perform, I would be captivated by every element of the performance, the mood that is set, the lights, her gothic clothes, her dark lipstick and eyeliner, her beautiful lustrous hair, the emotion and power with which she sings her songs and the little ‘on-stage’ moves she has (you would have to watch a video to know what I’m talking about) all add up to make such a striking and bold identity. I really do love her, she is a serious style muse in my list of very selected muses.

I decided to channel a bit of the Queen Bee, so I decided to go for bold purple lips! As I do not yet own a powerful purple lipstick of my own, I had to improvise. I used this intense purple eyeliner and filled my lips in with that, and smoothed over a lip plumper on top of that (life hacks, am I right?) The liner itself was sparkly with glitter, so it added a whole lot more to the look. I felt like a total rock star, and felt DAMN powerful, listening to great music, taking and editing the pictures I took. The colour is so intense and vampy, and I LOVE that. 

This was an incredibly fun post, and I’m so glad I went through with it without any procrastinating, ha. This post was actually in collaboration with Areeba and Noor, so check out their posts as soon as they go online! They are both channeling their ‘inner Lorde’ in their own ways, and they actually have hair just like her which makes me so jealous! I have wavy-straight, thick hair so I had to go for her thick, straight tresses look. Ah well, Lorde looks so gorgeous in both of them. Sigh. 

I hope to do so many more posts like this, and have planned so many more future, the thought of working on them making me ecstatic! Hope you enjoyed this!

Sunday, 14 June 2015


This post is the beginning of a series I'm introducing to this blog, which I hope will bloom into something much more. As can be seen from the pictures above, I'm experimenting and exploring different avenues, viewpoints, themes and ideas, and sort of just playing around with them through art journaling so I can create some visions and explore my identity(deep), and I decided to finally just GO AHEAD with one of my ideas and substantiate it.

  Ladies and gentleman, and those gender confused people in the middle, this is the first of many posts on work spaces of powerful, strong women. I want to blog about and share all sorts of work spaces that all sorts of women use to create the things they love, to be productive etc. I feel like creating the perfect work space is extremely important to help produce your best work.  

 Close your eyes and imagine if you were one of the worlds greatest 'corporate bitches' , or that you're a ruling queen of a foreign country, or the ringleader of a bad-ass, underground club of deviants, or even Beyonce. What would your desktop look like? What would surround you in that space that helps you conquer the world? 

This is the space of my friend, Morsche. She's this kick-ass girl, with an amazing work space. Notice the small elements that will ensue, like the abstract painting, the wall of words she did herself, the Swiss-army knife, the books and the little pottery candle holder. I know this is where she will come up with and do great things. You will see much more of her on this blog, as she is quite a good writer, and is so gorgeous, I'm thinking of photographing her for a themed photo shoot soon!

I absolutely love her desk space, it's extremely inspiring. I have a couple more posts for this series lined up, and in order to continue it, submissions are welcome, if you want to share your desk space aka throne, or your wall of inspiration, just shoot me an email at and send me your submissions!

Friday, 12 June 2015

Little girl things to big girl things

And it's finally summer guys! I cannot express how much I have loathed the past one and a half months-these board exams have taken such a toll on everything, my hair, my skin, me weight, my mental state...I could just go on and on, but I'm not going to because why hold on to the past? It's over with for now, I can worry about my result when it comes in August, I'll have a whole month designated to mourn and let my anxiety take over. Oh, how fun.

   You know how during school years and any exam period we daydream about having possibly the craziest, wildest and most productive summer imaginable and then when the time comes we end up completely wasting those precious months of freedom? Yes, I’m a great example of this-a master procrastinator and professional time waster are the titles I prefer. This strange creature, called Maham thrives on the couch and spends her time consuming TV show after TV show, completely oblivious to her surroundings. Ha.

But this year, I have the strongest feeling that this will not be the case. I feel like this is mainly due to the fact that I have never been this aware of my position in the world, and the fact that I have two years before university and I can’t waste anymore time. But that doesn’t mean I’m going to pile on internship after internship, because at the same time I’ve realized that (the following is going to be really dramatic) I really want to just be happy. Only do things that make me happy and give me pleasure and don’t stress me out so much. I want to feel completely aware of the fact that I’m alive. I’m well and alive. I want to live a life that I want to live, completely change up my lifestyle and take pleasure in simpler things as well. I started off summer by a little self care-I got my hair dyed! It’s making me so incredibly happy, I feel like it’s a move from little girl things to big girl things, and it makes me feel grown up, and powerful and happy. I got hi-lites and some lo-lites put in, in honey blonde and caramel. It’s a very subtle dye job as I just wanted my hair to look sun-kissed. A makeover to start summer feels absolutely incredible, and I feel like I can take on this summer now, and do everything that I have planned for it. No more TV shows, no more wasting time. More reading, more photography, more working out and eating well, more fresh air through breezy evening walks, wearing more colour, more self care by buying myself flowers and writing little motivational notes to myself, more time spent on doing things I love, more time sent being only with the people I love. It’s a fresh new start people, and you should join me in this fresh new start.

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